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You might have meant something romantic then, but you don’t seem to mean anything romantic now. It’s funny isn’t it? Well I think I know why I feel so connected to you. You were just a guide that was supposed to lead me down a road. The road where I would find my true dream. I wish I could thank you for it and tell you the whole story. But now is not the time, I will tell you when I can make the things I want to happen, happen.

Till then, I hope you find someone who will love you. Because I honestly don’t, and I won’t ever want to.

Next time you see someone who has tried to lower your self-esteem, smile at them as wide as you can. They will hate themselves so damn much for the things they said to you.

I used to think that I had to want something in life in order for me to keep going. But now I’ve come to the realization that I don’t want anything. And I’m absolutely okay with that. It’s not me becoming pessimistic all of a sudden and saying “I give up and I don’t want anything.” It’s simply me appreciating everything that I actually do have. How many things in life do we get without asking? We get parents, we get someone to care for us, we get a family, we get love, we get clothes, we get food, we get oxygen, we get land, at least that’s how it is for most of us. I kept thinking, what is it that I WANT? And after a lot of thought, I figured that there is nothing I could possibly have and feel better about my life. It’s life, it’s never going to be perfect. You’re not always going to get what you want. But you have to learn to accept the flaws and move on because seriously if you don’t then you’re just obsessed with the idea of perfect and perfect doesn’t exist in this life, so then you’re pretty much screwed. By God’s grace, I HAVE everything I NEED. I don’t WANT anything. If something good comes my way, yeah I’ll accept it. But I don’t need anybody or anything to make me want to live. I already live. I put a smile on my face everyday even if something’s wrong because that’s what life is all about! It’s about staying strong and putting up with all the tests that God puts us through. If you’re lost right now then I promise you’ll find the way someday because I have been there, I have felt broken, and I have felt the need to give up. But one day something will inspire you, something will knock some sense into you, and you will find a reason -that’s not at all an excuse- to keep going and fighting with life. It’s life, it’s going to continue on, so you might as well live it.

And I’m amazing at driving people away from me.